hope pt.17

AAAH should i pick up..la2na he seemed angry at me :s aaah stupid stupid jawa ! shlone itgouleen chithe jidam u5oo !! '3aba2ee mo 6abee3y..

me: a-aloo

aziz: jawa?

me: um..hala aziz..tara..im sor..

aziz: la la 3adi i understand !! bs joj kilish ma kan la da3ee ! o ywaisif mo yahil..tara yifham ib hal swalif.

me: please sami7ny..wala ma kan 8asde..o int fahim hal shay.

aziz: ee i understand 7abebty..khala9 dont worry about it.

how can i not love him ya nas? i mean comeon ! hes sweet..caring o most of all he understands me ! ya3ne 3araf ina ma kan 8asde asawe or act that way..anyways we finished first year of jam3a .. i heard aziz saying ina bikamil dirasta in LA bs i just ignored la2na ma fita7 il mawthoo3 wiyay.

UNTIL ONE STUPID DAY.. :

me: 9abaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa7 il khaiiiir !!

aziz: a777 athounyy !! hahaha 9aba7 il ward ya3ne inshalla il nas may9arkhoun chithe.

me: hehe sorry was i too loud ?? tara ive missed u !!

aziz: heheh me too 7abebty !..yala coffee bean?

me: yallaa ! ill be there in 15 mins

i took a quick shower while thinking about aziz..my aziz:*.. i want him to be the father of my children i want to get old and start a new life with him..and only him.

i wore my orange chloe` dress and my wafferers with my marni bag and gladiators..i added lipgloss and eyeliner only..i looked umm..morning-shh..hehe :p
while i was heading down the staires i saw my mom and uboy o my sibblings ga3deen..uboy 6ab3an ga3ed yigra jareeda my mom was watching some cooking show my sis was on the phone o my bro was with his psp..hehe just my typical family.

me: 9abaa7 il khaaiir ya a7la family !

mom & uboy: hala 7abebty 9abaa7 ilnoor !

sis: shhh im on the fone !!

me: mo wagtiich !! ..yala mama ana ra7ya coffee bean ..tamrouny 3ala shay ??

sis: eee !! abe ice blended with chocolate sauce

mom&dad: la 7abebty salamtiich bs la6aween.

me: inshalla ..BYE !! :D


awal ma rikabt ilsayara..and had INFINITY on oo the volume was a3la shay and singing me heart out !!

TAKE YOUR TIME TO TRUST IN ME .. AND YOU WILL FIND INFINITYYYYYYY !!

God i love that song..

i was driving VERY FAST ! la2na the song kept me GOINGGGG !!

and then ... ma athkir shaayy............ it was all BLANK.

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AZIZ-

shit shit shit !..i decided to meet up with her to tell her iny basafir akamil dirasty ib LA..ppl told me that she heard bs never brought up the mawthoo3..anyways i have to tell her today..tisaba7t o khala9t i wore my A&F swaetpants with a white crisp polo..i hopped in my car and drove off to coffee bean.

hope pt.16

sorry 6awalt 3alaiikum !

love u all :*

enjoy

xoxo..*R
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I LOOOOOOOVE HIM YA NAS !! am i sick?? i dont know ..am i ? im going crazy over him..the was he cares just drives me C R A Z Y i even have his smell on my scarf couse he hugged me that day and the smell was stuck on it to tell you a secret .............i sleep with the scarf :$ ok i know you think im weird bs im not :p.


calling noonie....


me: halaa walaa

nooniie: hala feech ! wainiich?

me: wala bil bait.

nooniie: lets do someting fun ! ibsara7a ana malaiit min il ga3daa.

me: haha 7ada !! yala mureeny lets go to starbucks then ta3alay baitna we'll hang out and eat pizza and watch a movie.

nooniie: yummy..ok ok yala be ready ill be there at 5 mins.

iwe went to starbuks and ordered and we were laughing as we were walking la2na noonie said something funny. i was wearing my colorful pucci dress with gladiators and nooniie wore her babyblue anna sui dress with flats. and guess who i saw ??? yes AZIZ awww so cute imwade his small brother yousef o ga3deen o isolfuun..we went over and said hi.

me and nooniie: hala aziz :)

aziz: sha9idfa il 7ilwa?..shlonkum

us: wala tamam.

aziz: this is my brother yousef..ywaisif hathol my friends joj..i7m i mean jawa and noora.

i giggled

yousef: hey

me: hala yousef shlonik?

yousef: zain

he seemed uncomfrtobale (yousef)..madre 7asaita.


me: ok 3ayal aziz we've got to go na5ith our orders o raj3een il bait.

aziz: laa gi3daw 7ayakum.

me: la wala mashkoor lazim inrid ..inshalla next time 7abebe (OPPSSS :O DID I JUST SAY 7ABEBY JIDAM U5O)

aziz: (angry look on his face) huh..inzain yala bye.

youm 6ala3na willa noonie gave me the biggest PUNCH ever !!

Nooniie: ya7maraa !! ashkaraa.

me: siktaay 7ade ma 7asaiiit !!

Nooniie: his bro mo yahil taraa! hes 15 ..fa yifhaaam.

me: ok nooniie wala fahaamt !! bs tara he got angry..imbayin from his eyes.

Nooniie: ee la7ath't



AZIZ CALLING...

hope pt.15

im baacck !! sorry beautiful people :) i was VERY busy...i hope you all wern't annoyed :/

i missed u all so much and i REALLY am looking forward to reading all ur new posts that i havent read! and again im sorryyyy:** enjoy the post..

xoxo *R

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i didnt know what to say..if he would get mad.. if i said anything maybe he would think that i was liying ..i had this worried look on my face that anybody who saw me thought that something happened .. la2na im a type of person ily ibayin 3alay. So awal ma 6ala3na aziz took me aside to ask me what was wrong..7ada kisar 5a6re la2na his expresion that was on his face imbayin ina he actually cared and wasent faking at all.

aziz: jawa..shfeech 3asaa ma shar?

me: umm..aziz tathkir hatha ily shifna bil jam3iya ..

aziz: ee ee athkira..laish athach? sawalich shay jawa? goulely.

me: hady zoozi...but PLEASE prmoise me that you wouldent get angry please.

aziz: i promise..wala..now say ga3ed itkhar3eeny.

i showed him the msg that the "not to be talked about" sent me as i looked down 3ala ma uhwa was reading the msg i saw his hand that he had a fist on..he was mad..but didnt say anything..he just took the number and saved it on his cell..and excused himself..now i was going crazy !! shbisawe bil number..awal ma he left i called him.

me: aloo..aziz?

aziz: ha jooj?

me: what are you gonna do with the number?

aziz: latkhafeen 7abebty ana bat9araf and you dont worry about anything.

me: but..im worried about you.

aziz: 3alay ana ? 7ayati wala..la la latkhafeen ill be fina as long as your fine * blew a kiss on the phone*

me: hehe..yala call me when your free.

aziz: min 3youni..bye.

me: bye

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AZIZ-

ana aware hatha..wala mayisti7ee wala !! kalb ! isawe 7g jawa chithe wala ana awareee!

me dailing that starngers number.

stranger: aloo

aziz: INT MA TISTI7II !!

stranger: na3am?? MINO MA3AY?

aziz: LAT9ARII5 !! INT FAHIM INT SHIMSAWE ! GA3ED O TIT7ARASH IB BANAT 5ALG ALLAH..SHOUF ISMA3NE 3ADIL..IN DAGAIT 3ALA RAQIM IL BINT WALAH IL 3ATHEEM MATLOUM ILA NAFSIK!! WALA RA7 TINDAM !!

stranger: int sha..

gabil laykalim kalama sadaita ib wayha..7arne mal arou7la wakaf5a..bs 3ashan jawa i didnt do that.

gilt 7ag 7amood 3ala ily sawaita.

mohammed: wala maysiti7e 3ala wayha hatha.

me: mayisti7i o bs ! wala 7amood lo mo mastik nafse chan kifa5ta min il telephone.

mohammed: int had al7een bul3iz..o latinsa ana majoud ayshay tabe ana 7athir.

me: 7abeby 7amood..3ala rasi..matga9iir.

mohammed: laa walaw ana cham bul3iz 3idy !

hope pt.14

AZIZ-

marait 3ala 7amood oo ri7na the uni .. as we walked in we saw two amazing looking girls, wila 6ala3 it was jojo 7abebty o nora.. 6ab3an 7amood yame ashiik ina mat :p

we walked over to them and greated them..and talked for a bit until each of us went to our classes..this time ana o jojo had the same class (thank God) so we dicided to sit at the BAAACCKK were no one can see us 3adil.

ma achathib 3alaikum..ma sima3t wala shay il dictor gala it was all "blah blah blah" to me..the only thing i was doing was studying jawa's features.

she had a very nice nose..not so long..she had full lips and hazel eyes..and the was her wavy hair danced while she moved just left me with a sigh.

i wanted to do something bs khift itfakir '3ala6..i wanted to hold her hands under the desk..since the desks were attached.

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JAWA-

he sat next to me..AAAH what am i supposed to do..i could feel his eyes burning right through me but i didnt look at him..haha he was funny..he let out a sigh like every 10 mins, it was so cute..i wanted to hold his hand against mine under the desks bs sta7ait.

I CANT TAKE THIS ANY MORE ...shway shway..i put his hand in mine. We just smiled and gazed into eachothers eyes for a while until he mouthed the words "a7ibich" ana i didnt have to talk my eye explained all the love i had for him.

He started to i6afirny and crack my fingers..6ab3an ana i just laughed.

me: ayy aziz ur hurting me.

aziz: haha u look so cute when ur getting annoyed.

me: ok ok stopp ! ayyy. *with a laugh*

aziz: kaife..*while lifting his eyebrows*

he lifted my hand up to his lips..i could feel his hot minty breath on my cold fingers..he kissed each and every finger. i seruisly M E L T E D .

i was blushing !! minsijy blushing like 3 shades of red at once..he started making fun of my fingers * starting to i6afirnee* :p

The class finished and we had another class..hours later..me, nooniie, zooz, and 7amood decided to grab some lunch toghether. Each one of us talked about his or hers childhood. haha mohammed galina ina kan ikhari3 ikhwana o he tells them itha ma sikataw al7een anadee the ghost "siduka" haha that made me laugh.

Aziz was the good kind..the one that cared about his sibblings and always watched out for them..he had 1 brothers and 1 sister ..and him being the oldest..he had yousef 15 and aisha 11.

we all had a great time !

aziz: excuse me, cheak please

waiter: one moment sir.

they brought the cheak and mohammed and aziz both faught over it..haha 6ab3an my babe won at the end..he was like "7amood itha ma 3a6aitny agoul 3an fa3aylik tara" chan sikaatt o 3a6a.

me and nooniie were just laughing

mohammed: ee ee thi7kaaw .. ana ily ibtalasht.

*STILL LAUGHING LA2NA SHAKLA FILIM*


+965990..: 1000 3afya.

na3am..no no it couldent be him BS BS BSS WHAT THE HELL DOES HE WANT. i decided to call him itha radaina il bait..To tell him to say the hell away from me

aziz: shfeech jawa?

me: me? huh la wala shay

i couldent really fake it..i couldent.

aziz: 3alay ana jawa? comeon say.

me: itha 6ala3na agoulik..i promise

aziz: ok

hope pt.13

ME TALKING-

The next day we had jam3a..

i went to starbucks gabel the jam3a with nooniie .. shift wa7da eyeing me min foug lay ta7at
i was like shtabe hathe ?? what the hell did i do..:S anyway she was giving me dirty looks and
stuff..she looked sluty..she was wearing a very skinng jeans with a tucked in tight t-shirt that was so tight ba3ad..and a belt and high heals very high , the ones ppl dont wear every day.

me: waay nooniie hathe shtabe it5iiz?

nooniie: wai3..itwale..dont look at her.

we ignored her and took our fraps and went to the car..wila faj2a astaw3ib ina that slut was the girl that hugged aziz at sugar and spice which ment that she was his DAMN ex..khara feeha !! ihya ily lamiita jidam hal nas..ilthahir she saw me run out of the store while he came after me.

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AZIZ-

walaaiiin male khilg jam3a..LA imbala i get to see my babe..7abebty jawa..it5aleeny ansa kil hmoumy..those lips..i wana taste them one day..AHH aziz inta shga3ed itgoul?..la la snap out off it..she might think '3ala6. Bs i do wana taste her yummy lips..BEEP BEEP

a msg from shoug: i saw ur girlfriend today..she looked ok..i thought you could do better.

my msg: na3am? intay min ay asas u send me a msg about jawa.

shougs msg: aha..so isimha jawa..la bs 7abait agoulik.

my msg: min gal hamne rayich?raja2an..me and u have no contact with eachother what so ever.

shougs msg: ok 7abeby ily iray7ik.

shoug is my ex that jawa saw hatheek il mara. walaaaain hathe shbifukne minha..and now she knows jawa..akeed bitsawe shay feeha..hathe shoug wana 3arifha 3adil..

calling mohammed:

me: haa 7amood? amurik?

mohammed: hala bul3iizz..e wala..ka 5 mins o zahib.

me: 5oush.

i got in the shower took a quick bath and shaved my unshaved face..sawaitly gifil ( a new look ) wala shakilha zain :p 3alama 6ala3t min il7amam o badalt i cheaked my mobile wila 7abebty..

a msg from my babe: Good Morning zoozii:*

my msg: 9aba7 il ward to my flower ya 3umri :* wainich 7abebty?

my babe: tawne wa9la il jam3a with nooniie.

my msg: kaa ana o 7amood yayeen

my babe: cant wait:*

a7ibha ya naasss a7ibhaaaa...kil ma ashoufha my heart skips a beat..kil ma akalimha a5arbi6 bil kalam o madre shagoul..faj2a a96il wana akalimha o ihya tith7ak 3alay..ya zeenha wala.

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YES YES I KNOW " ITS TOO SHORT " bs wal tawne yayah min party and my head hurts ! sorry :( forgive me:*

love you all :*

xoxo

hope pt.12

why is he talking to me.. im so pissed right now..

J: talk about what ?? huuh? tell me

A: juuj 7abeebty intay you saw everything wrong walaa.

J: im not blind abdulaziz

A: so its abdulaziz now?..no more aziz or azoz? afa jawa

J: well thats the way its gonna be.

A: aha..i see

VERY QUITE..

A: still there?

J: no

A: im calling you pick up noww..o itha you didnt minsijy ba39ib la2na intay m3a9ba o matadreen shisalfaa.

so i decided to answer his call this time, la2na i really needed some explaining

who was she?
why did she lay her hands on him?
how could she..that bitch.

*take your time to trust in me..and you will find infinity* my phone started ringing it was " my first time:* " i dont know why i called him this..it was kinda weird at first la2na awal ma idig ill be like "AAAAAH..my first time called" haha i called him that la2na it was my first time to fall in love and actually talk to a guy i like on the phone.

me: *quiet*

aziz: aloo? * with the greatest voice EVER..the way he said his aloo '3air 3an il nas..he said in a fast way..but i loved it*

me: hi

aziz: jawa shfeech? laish you didnt give me time to explain? you just drove off like that? shda3wa..

me: well abdulaziz..i saw what you did with HER o i didnt need an explanation.

aziz: still saying abdulaziz are we?

me: yes

aziz: ok jawa 7abebty..let me tell you sh9ar

as he was saying that i started tearing up..dont ask why i just did..la2na i couldent believe the FIRST guy that i actually liked and actually wanted him to be by my side did this to me.

me: ok say *sniff*.*sniff*

aziz: OHH GOD...ARE YOU CRYING?? DID I MAKE YOU CRY??..LA LA JAWA PLEASE STOP LATABCHEEN..ANA 7MAR ILY I GOT THE CUPCAKES MIN SUGAR AND SPICE .. WALA LO MO RAYI7 CHAN MA 9AR KIL HATHA O MA 5ALAIT 7ABEEBAT GALBE TABCHE.

7abebat galba?? a555 my heart ya nas! my heart.

me: laa aziz im sorry..please just explain..i need to know.

aziz: ashwa u called me aziz this time when you say "abdulaziz" it'thakreny ib ahle when they talked to me itha sawait shay '3ala6..hehe..ok listen ana ilyoum i went there to get some cupcakes..so as i was waiting yatne my EX o ana kint mo mitwa8i3ha kilish o 9adgeny awal ma yatne kint mit'thayiig..o 7asait'ha matiste7i ina she hugged me in public..bs shasawe ba3ad..bs wala i promise you ina i didnt hugg back..and jjuju 7abeebty ana i've mentioned that i changed ..ALOT..o i would never do anything to hurt my baby NEVER..a6la3 7mar..kalb..7a8eer u name it..bs i would never do that to you.
now see ina ma chathabt 3alaiich.

awwwwwww..what he said was so sweet..ok i kinda believed him la2na sij ma shifta hugging her back..and he had this face on the " mo wagta " look on him.

me: laa laa latsib ro7iik ..its fine khala9 ily 9ar,9ar.

aziz: ya3ne u believe me?

me: ee 7abeby i do

aziz : WHAAAAAT??

me: *chuckled* what ba3ad?

aziz: please ridaayy 3ala ily giltee??

me: 7abeeby??

aziz: call the amdulance..galbe.

me: HAHAHAHAHAHAH! smila 3alaiik

aziz: hhehehe..ya 7alat hal tha7ka wala.

so we worked things out..we talked about more things ..just random..and to tell you the truth i loved every second off it.

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i hope you liked the post..i might have a post bacher la2na i have crapy school work:p

love you all:*

xoxo

*help please :)

im thinking of cutting my hair..bs mitwahgaa !!
my hair is wavy with a bit curl into it
the lenght mala till my chest .. some people have told me to keep it the way it is bs to tell you the truth im bored of it..i want something new.

H E L P

any idea's beautiful people :)?

hope pt.11

aziz: haa 7amood..ashouf il tha7ka shaga wayhik shag

mohammed: shlone matshig wayhii shaaag..int shift'ha..those eyes that hypnotize me..everytime she laughs madre shi9eer feeny..shes sweet..shes so cute when she eats..and i like the way inha mirta7a around me..ya3ne shes not all fake like those other girls..o her LIPS..mal booss

aziz: *laughing so hard* ULAA ULLAA lay hal darajaaa!! wala inik mo'3ram feeha..e wala tistahil noora khosh bint..so do you have her number?

mohammed : laaa yuba..7asait ina ra7 a7rijha..ill have it soon.

aziz: ee zain :)

while aziz dropped mohammed at his house..he went to sugar and spice to grab some cupcakes (yumm :p)..he was standing in line waiting for his order when subbenly a girl screams.

AZIIIZZZ AL M*****???? IS THAT YOU?

uhwa 6ab3an i5tara3 o laf wayha wila he see's his ex-girlfriend standing there..*WALAIIINN 'said aziz quitley' *

meanwhile..jawa..

ee nooniie ill be home soon bs bayeeb shay min sugar and spice o yayitiich.

(ok now back to the aziz part :p)

while he turned around he saw his ex-girlfriend coming over to hugg him * LA LA SHE IS NOT HUGGING ME ' said aziz quitly' *..awal ma she hugged him guess who walked in ?? YES JAWA,ME!

my jaw dropped to the ground i couldent believe what i just saw..ma3anah gal all that CRAP ina he changed and hes a better person..i couldent believe that he lied ! how could he? with all the sweet things he said today? no no..i must be dreaming or something..because AZIZ my AZIZ would never do that..but i guess i was wrong.

He was shocked that i was there..he was looking at me while he was hugging that bitch (his ex) he saw my reaction he saw how i ran out of the store and straight to my car. As soon as he saw me he pushed her away and followed me..for the first time in my life i..i..i felt cheated on..ma3anah i knew aziz for a small time bs he has that special place in my heart that no one can replace..and now seeing what he did today just breaked my heart into pieces.

as i got into my car i felt a tear that shedded down my cheak.

aziz: *knock knock* joojo babe b6lay the window .. i need to talk to you.

i ignored and started my car and drove off..i needed to be alone..i needed to be in a place i felt calm. So i decided to go to the scintific center to walk 9oub il ba7ar..la2na the ocean was the only place i felt calm.

a msg beeped from aziz: "jojo call me i need to tell you what you saw..intay fahamtay '3ala6"

i ignored what he wrote and went deep in my thoughts..thoughts about "aziz"

there were 5 missed calls and 2 msgs from him.
1st msg " call mee..i need to alk to u"

2nd msg "JOJO ARE YOU OK?? RIDAY 3ALAY ASAP"


hah..now u care huh aziz? 3ugub what u did.

that night i logged in on msn he was online..

A: we need to talk..

*BAD DAY :/..

BAD BAD DAY

today is just horrible !!..im sick to my stomach

im home sick so im not at school ( thats maybe a good thing :p )

i havent slept all night .. im having those VERY weird dreams about superman DONT EVEN ASK :/

i dont wanna go to school tomorrow

im trying to get some sleep now

ill be posting part 11 till i get better


love you all :*